Monday, October 31, 2005
[**at long last..]sa wakas ay nkapag-post n rn ako...
sm valenzuela. yipee.. ngbukas n rn ang sm valenzuela.. mas mlapit i2 smin kesa dun sa north edsa kya ibig sbihin mdalas n kming papasyal..opening nung oct. 28 at npag tripan ng mg-anak ko n pmunta...andming tao.. sobrang sikip.. as in.. mkikita mo n ngsisiksikan ung tao sa escalator..nde ko inaasahan n khit sobrang hirap ng buhay eh meron pring mga tao n bili doon bili dyan ng kung ano-ano...ok lng un..at least msaya cla..khit saan akong tumingin n store andming tao..eh d un xiempre kmi rn ngsibilihan ng kng ano-ano...opening eh..tapos we never get the chance to explore the whole mall..dun nga lng kmi sa "hypermarket" eh.. mgkahalo n kc ung supermarket and department store kya ganun ang twag..the rest puro boutiques n.. hngang 3rd level lng xia.. ewan ko kng mlaki xia kc nde nga nmin na-explore.. pagod n kc ung mga tita ko kya next tym n lng daw..meron clang walkalator tsaka ung small touchscreen monitor directory...un bsta andming tao tlga pro masaya nmang mglakad-lakad sa loob...xP
projects. wla akong gnwa kundi matulog, manood ng t.v. at kumain sa loob ng bahay.. mg-lakwatsa sa kng saan-saan ntong sembreak...dhil dun wla pakong ntatapos n projects/homeworkx...puro unfinished pro onti nlng... ung sa tech. onti nlng tsaka onting notes n lng sa bio.. ang nde ko p tlga ngagawa ay ang computer project tsaka ung learning logs ko...
computer. nde ko tlga xia naiintndihan.. ala kc akong notes o kya examples mn lng..i- cacram ko nnman 2... tpos nde ko p alm kng kelan ung deadline...kpag ntutulog nga ako eh winiwish ko n sna ay tpos ko n yun lhat pggicing ko.. eh wla p rn eh.. ewan ko b kng tnatmad ako o kng ano pa.. bsta ala akong ganang gwin un.. tpos weird nga kc 2 beses kng npanaginipan yang comp. project.. pumunta p nga daw ako sa bhay ni januel pra mgtanong.. hehehe.. ang weird tlga..cguro paalala skin un na kailangan ko n tlgang gwin un...
school sick?. hati ang utak ko.. my pkiramdam ako n gusto ko ng pumasok pro meron nman n ayaw... cguro dhil nga dun sa mga unfinished projects ko kya ayaw kong pumasok... pro na-mimiss ko n ang kisay.. hehehe.. nde ung mga klase kundi ung mga tao[sbi nga ni elpi].. hayyy.. ung aking mga classmates ang seatmates ko n c jp at januel.. c lp, STD, c joyce, cassa, janina... bsta lhat pti na c shun..haayyy..
friendship ring. uyyyy... help.... nwawala ko ung friendship rng nmin ng STD... ano ng gagawin ko??? sori tlga... whaaaa.. ano ng mgyayari skin???
halloween. happy all saints' and souls' day sa lhat... sna ay nging mligaya taung lhat... godbless..whahaha... [connection?]
----------Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
♥ain't your doll;
9:56 AM
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
[**just a dream away..]I often ask myself why I'm so into you. But it would just turn out that I haven't got a single clue. I start everyday, not with a prayer, but with a vow that I'll avoid you. But I end up avoiding the shadow of my own conscience coz for the nth time now, I failed to evade you. You were there when I woke up. You were there when I slept. You were there when I closed my eyes to take a nap after a Physics test. You were there when the rain fell on me and got my face all wet. Sometimes I blame you for haunting me but I wake up to the truth that there's no one here but me. Then I know I'd be hurting myself once more coz I can't bear a moment without any YOU in my horizon. It's such a sweet torment on my part and though the pain is piling in, there's no way I could just walk out. Your words come into my head and I couldn't knock even some little sense in it once you begin your attack. One mintue I'm mad at you then after a serene conversation, I realize that you have painted yet another minute smile in my weary visage. Another split second passes me by and another batch of cascades escape from my core. It is not an easy task to forgive and then forget you. It never was and never will it be. I try to run away from your oblivion and make you believe that I am here– no bigger than an ant– wanting you to feel even just a little emotion, in return for the enormous sentiment I am keeping inside me. Man is indeed a hypocrite when he said that in loving, there is never a nedd of getting something in return. Because in my case, that is the biggest lie. Can you see me? I am here. Eternally feeling for you– falling for you. can you not sympathize to my lowly being and offer me even the littles compassion you can bestow? Tonight, I shall end the day with another setting of sun. I shall sleep in a bed of thorns and bleed in the agony of my creation. I shall close my eyes and revere in the mystique of your lair. For tonight, like every other night where I lay to rest my somnolent soul, I shall see your face amidst the dark and succumb to the immortal vision of you and me, breathing one air, under one skyuntil I tirew my heart to satisfaction. Come tomorrow, I shall wake up to see a brand new day and start it, not with a prayer, but with a vow that I'll avoid you. And once again, find myself asleep to dream of you.
♥ain't your doll;
9:53 AM
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
miss ko n ang skul.. pro ayoko png pumasok.. andmi ko png dpat gwin..hayyy..
♥ain't your doll;
9:27 PM
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Monday, October 24, 2005
antipolo. wla lng.. ng-punta lng kmi sa antipolo pra mg-simba.. kming mga mg-pipinsan ang mgkakasama.. hehehe.. ang saya.. bonding.. tpos tinour kmi dun sa church tower... my exhibit ng mga jewels and dresses ni mama mary... ang saya khit nkakapagod.. tpos dun sa adoration chapel.. ngdasal tlga ako ng taimtim.. o dba relihiyosa ata 2.. hehehe.. ng-sori ako sa mga sins n ngawa ko.. kc ngiging bad n ako.. andmi tuloy bad n ngyayari skin... hehehe.. tsaka andmi kong winish.. from family to friends.. hehehe...un lng tsaka kain kmi ng kain, andmi kcng food n dnala...un pg-kauwi natulog ako kaagad kc 4 plang eh gcing nko..xD
mapeh. dpat ay my praktis kmi sa mapeh ngyun.. sori tlga kng d me nka-atend.. kc nga ngpunta kmi sa antipolo..kwentuhan nio nlng me.. dpat nga eh baba me sa sm kya lng d ako pnayagan ng tita ko eh tsaka ala akong dlang pera.. hehehe.. tsaka nga pla. d p me ng-babayad ng P98 ky mariah.. maraiah.. pano kta mababayaran?? xP
♥ain't your doll;
8:06 PM
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
poem. wlang ma-post eh kya i2 nlng.. wla lng.. trip..
I wished upon a shooting star
Falling to it's death
My wish came true
It brought me you
But only to show me
Share with me
What I can't have
I am like a star
Flickering in the night
One minute you make me feel so right
The next second I run away
Afraid of being happy
I am an angel with a broken wing
I hide it with a mask
I have so many deep wounds
I have been scared
It is not my fault I am this way
He did it to me
He cut me so deep
So much hurt inside
I have hidden it well
But my heart has been torn
I feel like Hell
Please heal my wounds
Help me to love you
I already do
Help me to stay by your side
Before I fall to my lonely death
Just like the star that brought me you
birthday. hapi birthday nga pla sa isa ko png tita.. yey.. aalis kmi bukas pra mg-celebrate..xD
♥ain't your doll;
10:50 AM
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Saturday, October 22, 2005
mtap. unang session plng late n kmi ni leody... hehehe.. ok lng un... 8 ang start mga 8:30 n ata kmi dumating dun...pasaway... ang laki pla ng kiko... ang layo ng building n pggaganapan ng mtap.. dun p sa pnaka-dulo... tpos ang init-init buti n nga lng eh my silong ung pathwalk... haayyy.. eh d un.. ng-umpisa n cla..un my game pla, by group.. eh d un kmi ni leody, camille at gimmie ang mgkakagroup {mga latecommers}.. nung una nde kmi ngpapasa ng sagot kc wla nman kmi dun sa list of groups.. sayang nga eh...ang group nla dawn, jp, kuya dennis tsaka diana ung nnlo.. second p nga kmi eh.. hehehe..haayyy.. dpat d nman tlga ako mtap eh.. kng nde lng dhil... pro ala rn pla.. hayyy..
DMX. yikee.. c mina at c sarah ay ng-maniax.. c mina ang kulet.. twa ng twa.. ansaya kc nilibre ako ni paula.. salamat at advanced hapi b-day n rn...
happi birthday nga pla sa tita ko..
♥ain't your doll;
11:12 AM
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Friday, October 21, 2005
chorale reading. yesss... sa wakas ay ntapos dn.. we did a job well done...ang gnda ng setting with the smoke thingy and a transmutation circle look alike... hayyy.. proud n proud ako sa curie dhil sa pgtiyatiyaga at dterminasyon n mgkaroon ng mgandng presentation...khit crinam un at mramng mga away n nlagpasan, we still got a two thumbs up with a tongue from ma'am sd and ma'am banzon..haaayyy.. nde ko tlga un inaasahan, from the introduction n on the spot gnawa down to the exit.. nde ko tlga mkakalimutan ung cnabi nia about curie... n tuwing my-presentation daw ay na-sasatisfy cia sa gwa ntin... basta nde ko ma-explain ung exact words n cnabi ni ma'am pro tuwang-tuwa tlga ako..
biology. ok n sna eh, kng nde lng dhil sa bio.. ay mali pla nde dun sa bio dun pla sa teacher...after ng-presentation ay bio class... xiempre mga pagod kmi at mga wla png phinga at kain... dumiretso kmi ng bio lab ng nka-costume (cla lng pla ang nka-costume nde ako) pra hingin ang tym ng bio pra mka=pgpahinga at ayusin ang classrum.. tpos wlang tao sa bio lab, kya inisip nmin n wla c ma'am senilong... eh d yun, nki-usap n kmi ky mam sd, n i-excuse kmi sa bio., sbi nia she will try her best... tpos dumating ung momme ni januel, pnapaulit ung presentation pra ma-videohan.. eh d un...ulit nnman...eh d un nkain ng onti ung tym ng bio...kala tlga nmin wla n.. kc andun daw sa einstein c ma'am, nanonood.. eh d ang saya2x..tpos bgla nlng kming pnatawag lhat..mg-ququiz daw tlga kmi... eh lunch tym n nmin un.. nkakaasar tlga.. ewan ko tlga kng ppasa ako sa quiz n un..buti nga my-naisagot p ako khit konti.. grrr.. wla mn lng ciang konting konsiderasyon.. nkaka-inis tlga...
semestral break. sa wakas.. sembreak n... yehey.. i2 n ang hnihintay ko n phinga..pro sa dmi p ng ggwin ko cguro ay nde ko rn malulubos ang phinga.. gudluck n lng skin.. hehehe.. xP
♥ain't your doll;
10:56 PM
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
antgal ko ng nde ngpost...
nging bc kc me sa dmi ng mga dpat tpusing projects and assignments...
sobrang npagod tlga ako nitong wik n2...
thor's day. ummm.. ano nga bng ngyari nung thursday?? i'm trying to refresh my mind... ayun.. hangang 7 ung praktis nmin pra s chorale reading... kkpagod, pro ok lng un halos ala nman kming klase mliban sa a.p. tsaka comp. ata...
ispiking of da ap... d ko maxadong gusto ung bago nming teacher n c ma'am nemiada... haaayyy...ang layo nia ky ma'am capinpin...tpos nung ng-discuss cia.. hlatang wlang nkikinig..ewan ko pro ung nririnig ko lng n ng-paparticipate ay cna howell, reynald, mareca at pminsan-minsan ay ako... gumagwa kc ako ng notes sa geometry..tpos pg my tinatnong cia oo lng nman ng oo ung klase... hehehe...ngyun ko lng aapreciate ang kgalingan ni ma'am capips... ma'am bumalik n kaio...
chorale reading. todo cramming n tlga ang gnawa ng curie... sa friday ang presentation pro d p nmin sure kung may quality work kming mai-pepresent... hningi n nga ni mariah ang oras ng bawat subject pra mka-pgpraktis kmi... pro nung tym ng bio... my onting arguement n ngyari... hayyy... long story eh.. bsta it deals with our classmates n gustong mg-bio at ung mga gusto nmang mg-praktis...ako wla akong maxadong comment dhil kina-cram ko ung ntbk. ko sa geom nun...hayyy...pro nde ko nman cla inaaway or khit ano p, sna lng ay mkisama khit isang beses mn lng...iba tlga ang curie noon sa curie ngayon... sna ay maayos ang mga d pgkakaunawaan... haayyy...at isa p.. sna ay matutong mkinig...alam ko ngiging pasaway ako mnsan pro nung umiyak at nkiusap n c mariah tumigil n ako...pro meron pring iba n nde naiintndhan ung mga hirap ng mga tao dun sa hrap at wlang tgil n ngtuturo ng sumusuway... hayyy.. gudlak s lhat...
tumatakbo. tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako ng panahon... Di na nagbago bawat araw pare-pareho...parang kahapon... ilang beses ko rn nrinig ang kntang 'to.. from mariah to j.lo to lp... ba't kya andming kumakanta ng song n yan nung araw n un??.. cguro dhil ang buhay xientian ay gnito...
di n ngbago bawat araw pare-pareho, prang khapon... hayyy.. ako nga rn eh prang nbabagot n sa buhay... aral doon, aral dito... tulog.. kain.. ewan ko bsta nitong wik n 2 ko na-realize ang hirap ng buhay kisay..pro ito ung pnili ko eh...masaya rn nman eh...cguro ay kailangan ko lng ng break...
♥ain't your doll;
9:43 PM
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
wla akong ma-post kya ito nlng... ang senti nga nito eh.. hehehe...
realizations. For as long as I could remember, I have been living in this peaceful and undisturbed place, enclosed in sturdy and powerful walls. Plenty of people have tried to lure me away from here. Some say that I was missing half of my life by confining and isolating myself. Others condescendingly shake their heads in amusement, and knowingly declare that I will eventually surface from my dwelling. Whereas others more seek to tempt me, by promising things left and right, trying to make me believe that it was better for me to be with them, and outside my sheltered condition.
Amongst all these, I stubbornly shook my head in defiance, because I was certain that my present situation was what’s best for me. It is my choice to be here, anyway. Away from pain, sheltered from sorrow, and safe from getting hurt once again.
But as fate would have it, you came. Amidst the crowd, you held out your hand to me. I tried my best to refuse you, I really did. I burrowed myself further inside my place, but still you were persistent. I tried to get in touch with my cynical nature and recalled the reasons why I would rather confine myself in the first place, but I was unsuccessful. Slowly, reluctantly, I find myself leaving my personal hole. And you were there, waiting.
You opened my eyes to a wonderful place, and indeed, I felt bliss. There was so much to explore, things I never thought existed, and emotions I have almost forgotten I was capable of feeling. I finally came across things that I only saw in my secret fantasies. You and me. Together. And for that moment, that is all that mattered.
Yes, for a while I genuinely forgot about my past existence, and I have almost convinced myself that, as long as you are here, I was better and happier. Almost. Without warning, I slowly stirred from my trance, like a light bulb inside my head was turned on. I was reminded of the cruel realities that seem to cast a shadow over this different world I am now in. People who previously appeared as angels were now creeping back to me as monsters of my past. Places that seemed beautiful and magnificent now looked haunted. A variety of unfamiliar feelings slithered inside me—jealousy, sadness, bitterness.
I searched for you, but you were not there. All of a sudden, your fingers deliberately slipped away from mine. The hand, the very being, I foolishly believed would always be there, was gone.
Now I am lost and confused. I cannot return to where I came from, for you have already shown me another world beyond my own, a place where I ridiculously trusted that dreams could come true yet again. I cannot remain in this world either, since I am afraid of not being able to survive on my own, without you to hang on to.
It took me quite a while to realize, and to finally admit to myself, that I have fallen in love with someone I should not have fallen in love with. And now I have no idea what to do next and where to go. The wall that used to be my shelter already has crumbled down at my feet. Once more, I am everything I swore I never will be again.
♥ain't your doll;
9:38 PM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
hayyy... ngayun lng ulit ako mg-popost...
sisimulan ko nung...
saturday. my praktis kmi ng chorale reading.. angulo nga kc d ntuloy ung sa sti kya hnap ng ibang venue.. at ang bagsak nmin ay sa circle.. tpos un mga 16 lng ata kmi dun.. my masama p ngang ngyari ky jerelle eh.. un onting praktis... tpos mga 1 bmalik n kmi ni joyce sa sm.. hnatid muna ako ng bf sa grandslam bgo cla tumuloy ng jumbo japs pra sa knilang bonding... un eh d cla trebor at kevin a. ung ksama ko dun sa grandslam.. kc d ko mkita cla kuya at jan pierre.. un DMX mna... tpos dmating n c rens eh d un sia n ung ksama ko.. nlibot n ata nmin ung buong sm maski ung lbas kc tningnan nmin ung spongecola, pro ng-seset-up plang.. eh d un ng-txt n c lp.. eh mg-mamarathon p kmi.. eh d un diretsong wof.. pro d prin nmin ntapos.. pasaway tlga.. kkpagod ung araw n un.. xP
sunday. yun todo cram ng mga projects... gwa ng photo essay.. d ko nga alm kng pano ko cia ggwin.. tpos ung notecards, biblio... un tpos mga notes p.. hayyy.. pasaway andmi plang dpat gwin.. kya lng tnamaan nnman ako ng katamaran kya un pro tulog at nood ng tv ang gnawa ko.. tpos 2- 5 ng mdaling araw ko lng gnawa ung photo essay.. hehehe..
monday. mabuti nman at npasa ko ang dpat mga ipasa.. tpos my long test sa bio.. eh d ako ng-review... eh d un nung vacant, at english tym lng.. pro d p buong tym n un kc pasaway kmi nla justin at desiree... imbes n mg-review ay ng-usap p kmi tungkol sa mga music videos.. hayyy.. buti nga ay mtaas taas nman ung nkuha ko.. 44/50.. pasaway nga eh bgsak n yan kc 45 ang passing...1 point nlng.. bsta naasar ako sa isang item, bsta c des nlng ung nkakaalm nun.. project making sa algeb.. ok lng dhil special products and factoring lng nman..haaayyy... my nlaman p nga ako nung araw n 2.. bsta un n un.. nde nman ako nbgla kc prang na-sense ko n un.. nung sunday ko p nga ata alm eh..bsta... sumakit ung paa ko kc natapilok ak eh.. hehehe.. d kc tumitingin sa dinadaan.. xD...
tuesday. nothing unusual... ganun prin.. long test sa algebra at psahan ng proj. sa bio.. pahirap tlga yang bio n yan.. todo cram nnman tuloy kmi... tpos nung tech... sbi skin ni patrick, "ba't k nkatulala?" nde nman ako nkatulala eh.. nkikinig ako ky ma'am sd... tpos un.. unti-unti ng ng-sisink in skin ung mga pangyayari.. msakit un.. pro ok lng tlga..wla nman akong mgagawa eh.. tsaka bestfriend ko un.. pnakamamahal n bestfriend ko un...ayoko p nman ng ng-sesenti..xD
♥ain't your doll;
8:58 PM
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
.:You were then my entire universe. Its time you ought to know:.
♥ain't your doll;
11:56 AM
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Friday, October 14, 2005
.x.isa nnmang araw sa kisay.x.namiss ko ang kisay dhil d nman ako umaabsent dti, una ko p nga lng.
pinoy. absent si sir. kahapon p nga daw eh.. bkit kya?
ap. waahhh.. ala n c ma'am capinpin.. on leave n tlga cia...syang nman.. angaling-galing p naman nia..
mapeh. d kmi ina-tendan n ma'am dela paz... kc late xiang dmating.. syang todo praktis p nman kmi pra sa praktikal...
english. SRA.. yey.. ng-evolve n ko from gold to brown...
bio. ayun.. bngyan nnman kmi ng project ni ma'am senilong... pangatlo nnmin yan.. lumibot kmi ng skul pra humanap ng 20 n dahon, 10 flowers, 3 roots at 15 n stems ata.. bbgyan m ng description, common at scientific names... sa monday n ipapasa...hayyyy..phirap...
comp. pasahan ng project.. haayyy.. kninang 2-5 ng mdling araw ko lng un gnawa eh.. hehehe..xP nhihirapan ako sa algorithm.. bababa n tuloy ung comp ko.. pro ok lng un... xD...
advance tech. writing. notecards, bibliography cards...
algebra. haayyy.. ngkaroon kmi ng quiz 2ngkol sa factoring.. ok lng nman.. pro ewan ko kng tma ung mga pngsasasagot ko dun...
geom. ayun.. bagong lesson.. masaya tlga ang geom...
uwian. as usual, DMX nnman, marathon... paguran nga eh.. d p ko kumakain ng lunch nun...pro ok lng...ansaya kc un n lng ulit ung tym n un bsta...
♥ain't your doll;
12:25 AM
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
nde ako pumasok. kakatamad kc eh.. tsaka d ko p tpos ung proj. ko s comp, sa eng. at sa tech...hayyyy.. d ko nga alm kng pano ko ccmulan eh... tsaka ang skit ng ktawan ko, antok-antok rn ako... 20 nga lng daw ata ung pumasok sa curie...
moments. ngyun lng ng-sink in skin ung mga ngyari nung field trip.. ewan ko b.. bsta prang nde ko maxadong na-enjoy.. bsta.. tpos d ko naiwasang i-compare ung field nung first yir sa ngyun.. iba pla..mas gusto ko ung dti.. ewan.. bsta iba.. tulad ni lp, miss ko n ang curie-1 '08...haaayyyy...
♥ain't your doll;
11:57 PM
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
field trip. hayyy.. antgal kong hnintay 2ng araw n2...eh d nung umaga.. nkakatmad gumising kc alang pasok nung mon. at tues. (dhil dun sa journ.) eh prang d p snay ung katawan ko n gumicng ulit ng maaga...pro xiempre field trip un... tpos eh d pgdting ko sa covered court.. puro 3rd yirs.. tpos nkita nmin ni leody c ms. magtibay.. eh d ngtanong kmi kng san ung 2nd yirs..eh d rn daw alm ni ma'am.. gwa n daw kmi ng sriling pila..eh sbi nmin bka andun p cla sa calalay..eh d pmunta kmi dun.. tpos ayun.. andming tao tpos ang ingay.. bsta ang gulo...eh d c lp n ung ksama ko nun..sbi nia lipat nlng dw ako sa darwin..sbi ko cge b(xiempre darwin un) pro pwede b?.. sbi ni lp pwede rw bsta my kpalit.. eh c mj gustong lumipat sa curie.. eh d sbi ko cge mgpalit nlng kmi.. kya lng pano c carmina, cia dpat ung partner ko.. eh d un nkoncensya me kya d nlng ako nkipagplit..pro syang darwin un tsaka d p kmi ngiging mg-partner ni lp eh.. pro mhal ko dn yan c mina eh xD... eh d un andun n lhat ng tao sa covered court..alisan n dpat kya lng bus no. 8 p kmi kya antgal... xP
bus. eh d un ung tour guide nmin c ate ar-ar.. bsta un..tpos kkpanibago ung curie kc anthimik tpos wla png pumapansin dun sa tour guide... haaayyy.. ewan ko kng anong ngyari sa mga curians kc nkaka-bored tlga dun sa bus.. eh d un ako nman at c mina ay binuhos lhat ng atensyon sa gameboy.. hahaha.. ansya.. khit un lng gnagwa nmin.. nde kmi ngugutom.. xiempre dala rn ng boredom at ng laro sa gameboy... ang first stop,
science centrum. npunthan ko n lhat ng lugar n pg-fifieldtripan mliban nlng sa island cove.. nkapunta n ko d2 nung grade skul.. my pic p nga ako eh.. eh d un huli kming dumatng, nghinty p kmi dun sa lbas.. tpos un cla fred ang iingay.. sinumpong nnmn ng pg- aasar.. bsta.. eh d nsa loob n kmi... wla ansaya nung electric thingy.. ung hwak2x.. hehehe...libot lng kmi ni mina.. tingin dun tingin dyan... haayyy.. kkpagod... next nman,
aguinaldo shrine. haayyy.. npunthan ko nrin 2 eh.. pgbaba.. eh d un as usual huli nnman kmi.. npuntahn ko n rn 2 eh.. eh d dun muna kmi sa lbas kc huli nga kmi tpos antgal nming nghintay... ok lng un kc nkita ko nman c ano eh...ang astigin ng bhay ni agui.. andming salamin, antigo, at my swimming pool p... sbi nga ni gimmie, kurakot.. hehehe...bsta khit npunthan ko n dti na-amaze prin ako... hehehe..
island cove. sa wakas,, nkarating n rn kmi sa island cove.. dun n nga kmi kumain eh.. at dhil pasaway ako, bukod tanging kmi lng ni kat ang wlang lunch.. hehehe.. buti nlng bngyan me ni mareca ng spag. hayyy.. nbusog tlga ako... salamat mareca.. eh d un tpos lunch tuloy dun sa crocodile and monkey... wla lng ntakot ako dun sa crocodile.. hehehe.. c joyce kc eh ginugulat ako.. ewan ko b khit nka-steady lng ung mga croco eh ntatakot ako bka kc tumalon nlng bgla prang dun sa mga movies...tpos ung mga unggoy ng-aanuhan... bsta.. tpos sobrang init.. mnadli n nga lng nmin pra swimming n eh... pmunta rn kmi dun sa mga snakes and lizards... ayoko tlga sa mga amphibians and reptile.. nkakadiri... tpos diretso dun sa ostrich.. na sobrang baho ng amoy dun.. tpos andudumi nla... nkakadiri tlga... tpos dun n sa butterflies.. angaganda kya lng prang ang onti.. dp nga nmin mkikita kng d p ituturo ni sir sangel eh.. xP.. tpos nkita ko ung mga larvae.. yakkkk.. ayoko sa mga caterpillars and worms.. tpos anlalaki p...yuck... eh d un ngmamadli cla kc excited sa swimming... eh d un lumabas n kmi.. tpos pglabas nmin c ano kaagad ung nkita ko.. whahaha...xD
swimming. yey.. pgdating dun sa resort, humanap n kmi ng cottage at ngplit ng mga tsinelas...ayoko p nga mg-swimming kc mainit tsaka nde mg-swiswimming c lp x(... eh d un.. ng-bihis n ko.. kc ksama ko cla mareca at jana..pro pasaway cla, mg-piping pong p daw muna cla kya naiwan ako dun sa cottage...tpos nghahanap ako ng ksama, ayun dmating cla ayin...bsta ansaya nun.. ksama ko c ian robb, fred, mina at mdmi png iba.. ang gugulo nla..nung mga 4 npg-desisyonan n nmin ni ian n mg-banlaw..ayun andming tao kya nhuli kmi nla jana, pro mas huli prin cla mina.. hehehe.. ansaya tlga kya lng...kulang eh.. bsta..
uwian. haaayyy.. nkakapagod...pro msaya..nanood p nga kmi ng three eh.. ung nkakatkot n my pgka-porno... bsta morbid p nga cia eh.. brutal lalo n ung nasagasaan...ng babalak ng umabsent ang mga tao.. sbi ko pg nkita ko c ano d ako ppasok..eh d un kala ko p nman ggbihin.. eh 6:30 andun n sa tpat ng cyber...nkita ko cia.. kya d ako ppasok.. yey... kakapagod kc eh.. bgo p nga umuwi eh, ngDMX p kmi ni lp...tpos ayun, cnundo n cia ng daddy nia at nkisabay me... hehehe.. xD haayyy..
ang haba pla ng post ko..xD
♥ain't your doll;
9:24 PM
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
field trip. whahaha... field trip n bukas... nkaka-excite... ksama nmin ung 3rd yir... sna mging msaya at sna ay wlang mgyaring msama s field trip... tsaka gusto ko gbihin ung field trip... hehehe xP...
projects, homeworkxx. haayyyy... hirap tlga mging xientian... tambak nnman ang mga projects at assignments... sbi nga ni mariah "msaya sna mg-field trip kung wla taung iniintindi n assignments..." whahahaha.. at wla p akong ngagawa s mga un...pasaway tlga... xD
♥ain't your doll;
3:22 PM
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Monday, October 10, 2005
kowts.kowts.kowts. ayan...dhil ala akong ma-post, kya mga kowts nlng...
It takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them and a lifetime to forget them.
Before I met you I never knew
what it was like to smile for no reason
True love doesn't have a happy ending.
Because true love doesn't have an ending...
True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist,
nor can it be hidden where it truly does.
Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it shows;
more you suppress it, the more it grows.
You can always close your eyes to the things you don't want to see.
but you cant close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.
Love is when u cant pay attention in class
cause your forever writing your first name with his last
To love someone is to see a miracle invisible to others
The only guy that will ever be good enough for you
Is the one who thinks he doesn’t deserve you
If two past lovers remain friends,
they are either still in love or they never were.
Believe In Love At First Sight
You never realize how much you love someone until they're gone.
Love? It's kind of complicated, but I'll tell you this...
the second you're willing to make yourself miserable
to make someone else happy, that's love right there
The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl
Fall for him when he has no intention of catching her
The first time I saw you, I knew it was true,
I'd love you forever and that’s what I'll do.
You don't know what you do to me; you don't have a clue.
You have no idea what it’s like to be me, looking at you.
Loving you is what I've learned so easily.
Trying to forget you is the last thing I could possibly learn
because I'm deeply in love with you.
♥ain't your doll;
7:40 PM
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
bahay. ala pa rin akong mgawa d2 sa bhay..gwa ng mga notes lng ang pnagkakaabalahan ko.. hayy.. pro ok n rn un.. pra mkapagpahinga nman me dhil nung last wik eh konti lng tlga ung tulog ko.. buti n lng alang pasok sa mon. at tues...xD
kowts. ang ikli ng post ko kya maglalagay n lng me ng mga nkakalungkot n kowts...
"There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ... "
"Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him. "
"You're not worth the tears, you're not worth the heartache. I don't know why I give you the time. You're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. I don't know why I wish you were mine. "
"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned."
"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."
♥ain't your doll;
12:07 PM
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
fever. "mommee.. i feel hot" whahaha.. may skit me ngayun..ubo, sinat at sipon..hayyy.. ayoko ng ngkakasakit.. cguro dhil 2 khapon..sa pag-papaulan, pagpapa-tuyo ng pawis, sa kaka-volleyball, sa kaka-DMX..tsk.. pano kng d me mkapunta ng field trip whahaha.. wag nman sna.. ayoko ngang gumawa ng 20 algorithms sa comp...xP
praktis. dpat may praktis ang curie-dos ngayun pra sa reverse creation pro d me umatend.. pasaway tlga q.. tsaka meron me skit [excuse.^_^.].. ano kyang ngyari? nkapag-praktis kya cla ng maayos? na-solve n kya ung away?... sna nman ay nsa mood n cla ngyun... at sna ay mbawas ang mga d pgkakaunawan ng klase...xD
♥ain't your doll;
7:52 PM
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Friday, October 07, 2005
bagong blog. yey!!! may bgo nkong blog...salamat tlga ky joyce...ambait-bait tlga nia...d kc ako maxadong marunong pgdting sa mga html thingy...buti n lng at andyan c joyce...salamat tlga ng marami...
lay-out. d ko inaasahan n fullmetal ung mgiging skin ng blog ko...nagulat tlga ako...super peyborit ko kc 2 eh...naadik n nga kmi ni mareca...kya pla tnatanong ako ni joyce kng anong peyborit anime ko...hehe...salamat tlga kay joyce...^_^.
school. haaay naku napagod lng ako knina...nung umaga ng-ayos ng upuan (pro dhil ako ay pasaway wla pa ring design ung arm chair ko hehehe...) tpos umatend ng mass (sulat ko ung recessional song n nsa acetate knina.^_^.) sa hapon ng-linis ng rum(ako ung dun sa blakbord)kakatamad tlga...tpos pg alang magawa kmi ay ngba-volleyball... tpos nung uwian diretso sa sm pra mg-DMX... hay.. sobrang exhausted tlga ako... pro ok lng msaya nman eh.^_^.
reverse creation. ng-praktis kmi bgo mg-uwian at dhil cguro sa pgod ay mainit ang ulo ng mga tao... ung iba inaantok, ung iba nman ala sa mood...kya un alang ngyari dun sa praktis nmin...ala kcing seryoso...worse my mga ng-away p...pro dhil inaantok ako knina kya nde ko nlng cla pnakeelaman...sbi nga ni howell
"ng-divided into nations n tau"...sna ay mgkaayos-ayos n kmi at sna mging mganda ung klalabasan nung choral reading...
c joyce ng-post nito.Kahit ibigay pa sa kin ng Diyos ang isang perpektong tao, mas pipiliin ko pa rin yung mahal ko. 'Yan ang sabi ko sa 'yo nung minsang napag-usapan natin ang mga love life natin. Pareho tayo ng pag-iisip sa bagay na ito. Pareho tayong naniniwala na meron ngang tao na nilaan para lang sa atin. Dati, akala ko ikaw na 'yon. Ngayon ko lang naiisip na baka nga hindi talaga tayo para sa isa't isa.
Kung aalalahanin ko lahat ng dinaanan ko dahil sa iyo, mapapabuntung-hininga na lang ako. Sabi ko nga, mahirap maging kaibigan mo, pero mas mahirap na mahalin ka at maging kaibigan mo lang. Bilang kaibigan, kailangan kong ipakita ang suporta ko sa lahat ng gusto mong gawin. Kailangan ipakita ko na masaya ako tuwing masaya ka. Kailangan ipakita ko na natutuwa ako sa mga kakiligan mo kapag kasama mo siya. Kailangan nakangiti ako kahit malungkot ako. Lahat nang ito ginagawa ko dahil gusto kong malaman mo na tunay akong kaibigan. At dahil mahal kita. Kung pwede nga hindi na ako magpapakita sa yo para lang hindi ako masaktan. Pero mahal kita. Para sa akin, ito lang ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako umaalis sa tabi mo. Para sa akin, ito lang ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa sa 'yo.
Pero ngayong napapaisip ako, hindi lang naman kalungkutan ang dinala mo sa akin. Ang ganda rin pala ng pagkakaibigan natin. May mga araw na kapag magkasama tayo, tawa lang tayo ng tawa. Siguro weirdo talaga tayo pareho, magka-wavelength. May mga araw naman na sobrang seryoso ng usapan. Tungkol sa mga problema sa pamilya, mga prinsipyo sa buhay at mga pangarap na gusto nating abutin. Pero may mga araw rin na wala kang kakwenta-kwentang kausap. Yun yung mga beses na kahit tahimik lang, ok na para sa atin.
Kapag kasama kita, sobrang kumportable ako. Kaya kong maging ako tuwing kasama kita. Kaya kong sabihin lahat-lahat at ipakita ang buong pagkatao ko sa yo dahil alam kong tatanggapin mo pa rin ako bilang kaibigan.
Ito ang hindi ko nakita noon. Dahil sa pagkabulag ko sa pagmamahal ko sa 'yo, isinumpa ko ang pagkakaibigan natin. Lagi kong naiisip na kaibigan lang kita. Hindi ako nagpasalamat sa pagkakaibigan natin. Ngayon lang ako natutuwa na kahit papaano, kaibigan kita. Masaya ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko, kahit para maging kaibigan ko lang. Isa ka sa mga biyaya na ibinigay sa akin at nagpapasalamat ako dahil dito. Masaya ako dahil kaibigan kita at dahil namamamahal kita ng ganito. Siguro nga hanggang dito na lang ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo. Hanggang kaibigan na lang.
Kahit ibigay pa sa kin ng Diyos ang isang perpektong tao, mas pipiliin ko pa rin yung mahal ko. 'Yan ang sabi ko sa iyo. Sabi ko sa iyo mas pipiliin pa rin kita. Na kahit sino pang mas gwapo, mas matalino, mas mabait, o mas may prinsipyo pa ang dumating sa buhay ko, ikaw pa rin. Kung gugustuhin mo lang, ikaw pa rin. Ikaw pa rin. 'Yan ang sabi ko sa iyo. Bingi ka lang. Manhid pa.
Siguro nga hindi talaga tayo para sa isa't isa.
♥ain't your doll;
2:05 PM
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